I didn't want to flood the teeth, and rolling, and fun with friends and MeeMee with my tearfest. (According to spell check, tearfest is not a word.) If you read this blog regularly, you know I cry most days. I cry tears of joy and elation at the miracle I get to spend my days with, but the 6 month milestone has hit me hard. I was able over the weekend to duck away and cry and try to be busy busy with all the fun going on. Alas it is Monday, MeeMee is gone, and it's back to the grind. The wonderful, perfect, wouldn't change a thing about it, (except a little less spit-up, a little less dog hair, and a little less laundry) daily grind of life with Baby Ben. The tear inducing part is that the baby part of Baby Ben is half over. Don't get me wrong, I get VERY excited about what the future holds for Ben and our family but the nostalgia for babyhood is taking over me these days and I hope it passes soon.............or I'll have to start buying waterproof mascara.
The first time ever I saw your face
Just before leaving the NICU
Seeing these pics from the week Ben was born remind me of Nana Pat and Grandpa Jim coming to visit us in Iowa. When given the chance to feed Ben, Nana Pat said, "no, no. You should, you need to bond." I told her then there was no worry of that-that it was love at first site, the first time ever I saw your face.
Crying for you, sweet friend! You are such a good mama, soaking up every bit and being so introspective :) I remember these beautiful photos from when Ben joined our world. They are even more special now that I know his sweet smile and his big brown eyes. You are truly blessed!
ReplyDelete**Correction: big steel blue eyes. Clearly I have been distracted by Ben's beautiful long eyelashes ;)
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